249 : Angsek-ness goes on

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Should function follow form ? Or shall be allow form to lead you blindly into a world of insanity ? Humans are weak, we aren't really suited for change, or rather, reluctant to change. We FEAR change. Instead of questioning generics and stepping out of that stupid fox hole, we suck it up and take things as it is. When was the last time you asked a question like "Why is the sky blue ?", why must we brush our teeth BEFORE breakfast instead of after. Why are TVs rectilinear ?

Either we're too busy or simply complacent. To quote the US senator Obama, "The time for change has come." =)

248 : Guess whoooo

One of those times, you think you're good at drawing, but honestly, nothing turns out right. So do you think i can sketch ? The lady ( yes its a lady ) is some celebrity. The one who guess correctly gets a single piece of plingles sour cream and onion. Of course, if no one can get it right, it simply means, I CAN'T SKETCH FOR NUTS.

And on another note, time pass when you're having fun. Been one week since i stopped work. And i manage to complete a few i wanted to complete games like MGS4 and FFTA2. Good stuff.

247 : YUI wallpaper 6

KISS. Keep it small and simple. Its the mascara and the lipstick that makes a lady a lady.

246 : What it takes to be me

Actually up till today, i've been really blur on what was going on 2 years back. Yup, its almost already been two years, wow time passes quickly, 20+ days to ahmi, and a little more i'm gonna turn 20.

And so, i ask myself, why why why why, but the true and correct way of approaching this situation is actually to not answer the question, but to accept it. And you might be thinking, what the heck am i typing about... But all that is in the past, and i shall not linger over it. In short, i guess its to suck it up and move on. Sometimes a kid needs to be smack in the face to tell him/her the hard way on a certain issue.

Ok well, i stopped work, killed some of my time these few days catching up on some gaming and some good friends, been sketching more often. Basically enjoying what i do most, in the expense of my precious time, and money.


I used to think (recently) perhaps i'm not working hard enough in my short life, perhaps, that's why there are more talented and skillful people out there. And perhaps thats why, how i'm like this today, trying to work harder, squeezing more time in a day compared to then, and hopefully one day become more of significant individual. Significant to what ? Myself of course.

In many ways i'm different from many people, my lifestyle, eating habits, likes and dislikes, fears and worries shape the way how i appear and appeal to other people. Maybe that's why i can't be always be in the good shoes of everyone else. Just so happens thats always a personality at the other end of the polarity.

Well, today's reflection is a bit of a big discovery. Though i always knew i don't want to be hated, and so i worked hard, holding back things to be said, or not, to be in the neutral side or the good side, but is it really working ? Trying too hard to be on the right side, sacrificing my individualism to blend in, is it worth it ?

I am here today, as me, because i know this is the result of the interactions i have between my close buddies friends and colleagues, and family. Maybe the me in 10 years time will see things much differently... am i right future me ?

245 : Thou shalt not speak my name

Its been 5 month plus plus since my days of a pathetic part timer to well, something more i guess. There's gonna be a farewell lunch tomorrow for me at work, as well as some stuff going on at night. Knowing that they (colleagues) will probably prepare some gift for me, though i really hope they don't cause i need to return that favour, well, guess i need to prepare something for them too.

Using recycled and things i don't need as usual =) I intend to market these babies as my new name card/paper weight and to mark my new join venture with some good buddies of mine. Spreading the seeds, thats the way man !

Its nothing impressive, but its something rather than going tomorrow empty handed. Why bench you ask ? Why indeed..... a good question. And good questions deserves to go unanswered. And yes, i do realise, my handwriting sucks big time since the dawn of time.

I'll be away on a short holiday again back to Malaysia.

244 : Spoilt for choice

When mummy called and told me to ask me to cook my own dinner the other day, well she did mention there was plenty of choices of noodles (instant) for me to cook. And here i go thinking hmm, ok great must be the usual 3 brands we buy all the time cos' there's not really much choice for us vegetarians. But oh boy, was i dead wrong.

"War times are imminent"

Basically the whole food shelve is stuffed with instant noodles. I'm not too sure whether we're inviting guess or me inviting friends next month to clear up all those food, because i'm damn sure i'm not gonna finish all that unhealthy food.

That aside, anyone figured this out yet? How does the water seem to appear to flow up the fountain ?

"N!ghtmoadsuX"

243 : 8.30-5.00pm

Human typology.

Look around your classroom, office, canteen, where ever you spend most of your time at, and look, stare hard and these people. Aren't they different ? Different from you ?

But yeah, we live, we eat, and most of all we sleep, and maybe most most of us all will leave for lunch at 12pm sharp. Humans, they are around everywhere anywhere, and as if they're there because they had to be there, or it simply just, happen.

Apparently, a recent discovery prompted me, "hey dude, things don't just happen dude, some factors instigate it, external unseen forces move things, too many things, and when the forces are too strong shit happens." Well, people congregate and stay for some reason i guess, and they leave when the shit happens.

At work, we see lots of people, different people. Though theres always a company slogan that says something along the line of "A united vision", people tends to stray, and boy i mean really STRAY from that vision.

I've never really thought about work. We work to earn money as a primary mean of survival, or to earn the ability to buy your kids happy meal weekly. Its come to my attention, yeah, we have many different needs. It all comes down to need. The list today will sort what i had thought of during my time in the toilet.

1. Money, to survive
2. Recognition, to climb up the social ladder
3. Experience, to understand shit before giving out the shit to others next time
4. Pass time, because they want to do something other than to watch k/j/hk drama at home 247
5. Money, to sustain their heavy expenditure lifestyle
6. School, compulsory internship to graduate or to sustain the industries' source of cheap cheap labour
7. Money, to pay debts. Or for some to serve bond due to scholarships. Sad isn't it
8. 洗黑钱, unlikely but its happening.

Well, from this we can see, yes, many people do have different reasons for working in the society. We're all too different, but from the list, in the perspective of an outside, we all share the same characteristic, ultimately its all for personal gain.

I'm no ghandi or mummy theresa, so i'm gonna hush up about this.


If anyone can find a someone who works for any other reason, do inform me.