227 : Excitement and motivation

Recently, a close friend asked me, what was my excitement in life. I couldn't answer that. I thought for a bit, then was stumped by a reality.

A reality that binds us within the X,Y,Z axis. This world we're in, the air we breathe, the food we need to eat just to get pass the day. Its irritating.

We work hard, but what for ? A bright and exciting future ? Start a family ? Spread your genes ? Studying hard to get recognized, and then what ? Good starting pay ? Your own business being you own boss ?

What's pushing you to live pass tomorrow ? Often than not, man are being motivated by desires, wants, most of the time superficial things, and these motivation pushes them hard. Poor people want to get rich, rich people want to be richer, richer people wants power. Are we all bounded by this irritating system ? For the tiny amount of lifespan we have, is this IT ?

Ask a kid from cambodia what he wants to be in the future, and most likely he would tell you a doctor or teacher or some other occupation the society deem as noble. How did they come close to this idea ? By growing up in poverty, the most obvious and direct route for them is to get out of the poverty circle, and lets say they're out already and running their own hospital/school, what next ? Continue to do the same thing until they breathe their last breath ?

We're bounded by fate as to where we're born and who our parents, society are like. And we live that life under these circumstances and restrictions, and that rail had already been set for our train of life to choo choo along.

Excitement about life ? Whats there to be excited about ? When i was studying, i looked forward to the holidays, when i was working, i look forward to my pay, and when i will be doing NS i should looking forward to booking out and stuff. And what's the BIGGER picture ? I'm not sure.

Just a little experiment to test my theory, i posted an interesting questions to whom i think would give me some response.

The question was " What would be the no. 1 thing that you would want to do right now ? "

Here's the breakdown of the reply :
(i'm using "him"s to keep gender out of the equation)

1 wanted to ask his ex gf out tomorrow but was not sure whether he wants to or not.
1 wanted to fly his own plane behind his own controls.
1 wanted to kill himself and not make people sad. ( i better be more careful when asking questions)
1 wanted to go to bed. ( sorry for disturbing you !)
1 wanted to skip army =X
1 wanted to end his army service and get his pink IC back immediately =X
1 wanted to talk to his gf from japan ( a call or something not too sure).
1 wanted to go overseas on a holiday with his family.
1 wanted to also go overseas to holiday.
1 wanted to get 1st class honors in university, get a job and then get married.
1 wanted to take a shower/bath.
1 wanted to find a good loan to go overseas studies and find a good uni which will accept his poor grades (tough.)
1 wanted to return his graduation robe ASAP because he can't do it on weekdays due to work
1 wanted to go out to chill somewhere but worries about his wallet
Some didn't bother to reply which is pretty ok. For those who did you're cool.

Its interesting to note that in my question, i did not state whether its a lifelong future future thing or a instantaneous need. Some answers were quite individual specific such as flying the plane and making a long distant call overseas to a loved one, but MOST answers, didn't we some point in our life would have that particular want and desire ?

After all, we're all the same but not quite. What's YOUR excitement and motivation in life ?

226 : 光阴似箭 light dark like ehlow

I made a record today, spent less than $1 on personal expenses. There's many ways to look at this, i looked at it such that, the direct deduction from my own wallet was from traveling to work today from home which is around 80 cents.

Lunch was on boss as i needed to give him a private lesson on the program. $3.

Teatime was yet again on my direct supervisor, he brought me down for tea and coffee and treated me because i think i looked very stress. I should get him something next time.

Tea time jolly. Yes i'm being paid for drinking high grade tea.

Dinner was on mom, because i went shopping with her to buy her students stuffed toys because they were well-behaved in class today. The kids were asked to write what they wanted on a piece of paper and to be handed to me mom, most of them (p1 and p2) wrote stuff like sweets and dogs and cats (stuffed ones), one smart GIRL wrote "PSP". I salute her.

On the way home from dinner. 3 lamebow so far in 3 days. This is one hugeassed rambo. Many people were simply stopping along the wrote and taking a picture/staring at it. Too bad my camera is craaap.

I should start buying 4D with all the saving up of money and lucky signs.

225 : Lameboh !

Today's a quick post with 2 pictures

Taken at An-new-ass open field there. Not sure it can be called a lameboh, leprechauns or rambo.

This one is a bit hard to spot. Taken on train during this morning's heavy rain. Its huge !

I hate being busy, you just seem to have less time for things like exercise, love, and blogging.

224 : 赢了咯 win liao lor

The bet paid off, i suck up my balls and approached the big guy, demanded, ok more like pleaded in a sorrowful manner, to have my pay raised to an acceptable standard ( market standard at least la). He looked at me, explained i am getting taxpayers money for my pay and i need to fully justify from my side why i deserve so much ( how much it was never mentioned). I left his table with a low low hope of the request getting through because, well the gahment is pretty stingy.

So one week later, after some emails with the HR dept from the big guy, HR CALLED ME AND APPROVED THE PAY RISE ! Big shock ! The "justification" they needed was simply my diploma cert or prove that i am awarded one and graduated. Lesson learned here is, i guess you need to just hold out, do some shit for a respectable amount of time, and approach the closest big guys and use their SEH to get the job done.

I gonna frame up my employment and salary letter in a nice golden acrylic box. So when i come out of NS and look for a job, i got bargaining power liao. Win liao. The bet paid off !

I starting my classes for my students (my colleagues and boss) at work next week friday to teach them the program. Will try to shake a bit more leg and feel shiok before i quit for enlistment.

Past week, chionging the poster for some event corporate thing. Its everywhere, but no on knows the genius behind it, only YOU know, haha for my sake.

Its the one on the left, taken outside the lift lobby of each floor for 32 floors. The one on the right is just ewwww.

Taken by me as observed in the lift. Huge A2 poster glossy paper, god bless the trees for this noble cause.

A3 sized poster found in HR department manager's cubicle while collecting my letter.

And a huge 1.8m high poster to grab people's attention for the donation drive. Can you see it ? And all are printed by me the super part timer.

Flaunting owari !

223 : When choosing something random, randomality is

Often when we make a decision, we JUST do it. Often than not, large grown men choose to question their own decision, and consider an infinite amount of possibilities to counter their own decision. Opposing the convention, doing it the new way no one else had done before. Everything seems so wow, cool, but still, its tiring and tedious. Thats the thinker's higher society life, they get paid to think.

Enough of that.

Identify the location and animal in this picture ( if you can spot it that is). Hidden mystery prize for the correct ans. So far none had got the quizzes right.

I shouldn't be posting this. It may probably be stolen when someone sees this baby here.

We're reaching the middle of the year soon. 2008 has been interesting so far. The clock (in the above picture) just can't stop ticking, and yes i tried removing the battery.

222 : Tax Payer's Money

JUST today, i asked for a pay rise. I feel it takes lots of balls to ask for such things in front of your colleagues and well, pretty much try to reason out WHY you deserve such a thing. For myself, i've got only half the balls, managed to pop the question after 7pm when most of the people are gone. But yeah, its not easily, especially when the extra money comes from tax payer's pockets, which means yourself, and your mummy and daddy and honey.

Its a pretty good experience, everyone should try it one day, its all part of growing up.

For the past long weekend i did plenty of crazy things too. Too crazy to blog it up, so crazy parliament needs to pass a policy/law/bill to approve it. Probably... And now, the good stuff, give comments as always, i know its not that great, but its the effort and thought that counts. Honestly, it sounds better NOT RECORDED, i have a feeling the pickup a bit spoil.

Recorded 2 more new songs :
1. The Place I'll Return to Someday
2. Happy Birthday Acoustic

The highlight of this post is once again to emphasis the need for a higher education. People simply look at your paper qualifications. TRIPLE SIAN.

Anyway, just curious anyone out there had asked for a pay rise right up your bosses face before ? Anyone ?

221 : Talk show

Here's a few interesting things.

While i am typing this, my mom just insulted me on national radio. They're talking about childhood and growth stuff, and i sort of entered into the picture. Great.

2nd. Its been a long time since i went to watch a movie, and sat in a couples' seat. The sad sad sad part wa kau, sat with another guy. Yeah might be my good buddy but but... GUY. COUPLE SEAT. SO WRONG. We're practically surrounded by couples (normal ones). Embarrassing la.

3rd. Everyone thinks i've studied some media course and stuff from my school and EVERYONE thinks i am an intern. They find out i am working part time and they give me plenty of stuff to do just cause they have the impression part timers are super duper free. 4 projects on my hand, they're starting to stretch me already. Once i am gone. Good game.

Just to whine a bit, i printed 50++ posters of what they're going to give out to the whole office. Then 16 A2 posters to be pinned up in lifts. And one very big big, 1.5m high poster....... plotted on gloss paper. And gosh i hate loading those glossy paper to those huge colour plotter, and need to align and align and then need to align again for the printer to print properly. Irritating.

After speaking with a few of my lecturers during my off day, i've decided to change my education direction to an overseas degree, yeah and hopefully a masters too. As for what to study, i shall decide in AHMI. AHMI. AHMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII.




AHMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..... Wa ki kun liao.

220 : A few more months to GO !

Its hard to get a day off when you don't open your mouth. To think of it, work 2 days rest 1 day work 2 more days, rest 2 days, not bad at all. I did many things today already, cleaning my room, watching some new animation dom-chan passed me aeons ago, catching up with old friends, visiting SP and, just getting stumped in a retarded conversation.

Its time, i stand up, boldly and ask for a pay rise. Anyone any tips ? Haha, here's a photo i snapped today.

Match of the century. My opponent took thrice as much time i did and lost. It was an honorable fight worth remembering.

Look forward to whether i get my pay rise or not, if they refuse, i'm quitttting.





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219 : 巫启贤 - 日月落升

title : 日月落升
sing :巫启贤
orig/play key: C

C G
童年无知的期盼
Am Em
把它寄放在云端
F C
哪有天际的无穷
Dm7 G
寂寞的心胸。


C G
漫长无尽是路程
Am Em
常有奇异的黄昏
F G
此刻短暂的歇息
G C
日落月又升。


Am Em
孩时伟大的希望
F C
从不退色的月光
Am Em
双颊指间能拥有
Dm7 G
岁月的流逝。
Am Em
梦里遗失的传说
F C
换来清风的淡泊
Am Em
聆听夜空的声音
Dm7 G
说年华已老去。

C G
不会指南的星辰
Am Em
没有幻想的余存
F C
夜里祈祷一过去
G C
月落日又升，

G C
日落月又升
G C
月落日又升。

Quite an easy song to play with interesting lyrics. Yeah, there will be another sunrise tomorrow, and time will just tick heartlessly while we age and dieeeeeee.

218 : Past 2 weeks

Another week has come to an end, and here's what been keeping me busy among other things.

Ah ! 2 weeks worth of hardwork on serious photoshopping and changing and OT-ing to complete this mammoth of a boards. Its actually 3.5 A1 boards stiched together to form this 2m high mounted presentation panels. 150 dpi file. Pure madness

You can see that, the panels consisted of 2 layers, one popping out to show the 3D depth. I killed many trees while printing these guys in GLOSSY A0 sized paper cause the plotter hates me.

I have made a diorama using the extra black foam board from the mounting. Walls were printed and scaled. The rock texture was from normal A1 plotter paper with colour, crumple, fold and staple down to Styrofoam.

Yeah, 2 weeks of (not so hard) work. After this project, i realised the usefulness of having an A1 plotter with (almost) unlimited usage without the factor of cost.

Where shall we go out this weekend ?

217 : Corporate function

First burning question, what's the difference between a CEO and a chairman/woman in an organisation ?

2nd question, why does everyone enjoy buffet refreshments ? Why is buffet called a buffet ?

3rd question, why do corporates spend so much money on functions/company events when they could increase year end bonuses ?

Sure, i could easily search the web or ask around for answers, but thats just how random each day at work is.

I've talked to a nice lady during a company event (financial year briefing) in an auditorium about many things. I didn't know her at all until we started introducing ourselves to one another, which department how old, how long working, happy or not those kind of things.

Well, the briefing part and the skit were pretty boring, so i spent the whole 2 hours plus talking to a stranger i just met. Turns out she got a son just my age in army, and she's quite worried about him. I was told he's from a well respected JC, and now serving in a unit in which luckily he gets to go home daily. I think all mothers are the same, no matter what, they are worried about their child, whether they're doing fine in army, whether their university admission gets through, whether they could manage the shock when they break up with their dates. Haha, most of these were mentioned in the talk we had with much detailed elaboration i shall not share here.

To highlight the more interesting topic, it was about the girlfriend her son is seeing, (the gf not so good background with gambling parents) and she's super worried : "If you marry the girl, you're marrying the whole family. You will call (and treat) you spouse's parents like your mom and dad, and vice-versa." Ok, he's only 20, as old as me, why dear lady, i highly doubt your son would be serious in this relationship but yeah, i guess being a mom, its a relevant worry.

Mother's Day is almost here. Spent the whole day at work thinking (not slacking thx) and working at the same time (multi-tasker here) about what i should present to soon. I've already got another present for a friend ready, but getting a mother's day gift is tougher. I've been criticized for giving people cheapo free postcards for birthdays, so i guess, this time round, need to spend a bit more effort and marney.

But yeah, today's corporate event saw 500+ participants from a company congregating together to slack from work, and let others do the job and enjoy a "free" buffet reception. I've been invited by the lady to pop by her department on another floor to visit. COOL LA. Seriously, i've noticed this company got too much females that its getting uncomfortable. 阴气太重. But yeah government 会社 need ladies to do those admin and paperwork, its just NOT FOR MEN.

Honestly i think they like it.

P.S. The lady said something like "My boy had been to pampered, his road too smooth with us parents taking care if it all the time. He doesn't know how to fall and suffer failure. Perhaps then when he fall, it will really hurt. Maybe its my fault for spoiling him too much when he was young." Wow and i'm just a stranger.

I guess yeah, if you have not suffered failures, know and felt the pain of losing and not being able to 对得起人家, i guess knowing failures and hardship when young will really mold a person for life.

失败是成功之母，跌倒了要爬起来。

216 : five words

People change, change is good.




today was good.