025 : Some ideas i feel its good to know about.

This is a very serious problem among many people nowadays. When kids like me become damn free and got lots of time to play, relax and have fun, we, well boys, normally take it out to the monitor. Gaming and playing for too long really does kill your eyes. Its good to go out and take a walk and feel the outside air.

Having said that, i had taken quite a feel breaks myself too. And i think its time for me to start work too. Since the last submission for the portfolio is coming real soon. With my current crappy final project grades, i need to really squeeze as much of the 10% of the whole year's grade as much as possible. My grades suck. It does. I do not wish the reveal my grades here, as it is a real disappointment and well, makes me really down typing it out. It sucks. I do not think anyone deserves the grades they get when they did put in the effort.

Yes, sure, we are in a tertiary institution, where they wanna see results, not hard work, but still as an educational institute, ain't it better to just give some people some slack ?

After the many talks and insights i had with Jess, i realised many many things. And how many of the friends are really right about some stuff. First its self realisation, when i was in sec sch, i can consider myself a loser. Yup you read that right. A loser. I think some of my close peeps would not agree to that point. But people i did not know so well last time, eg. Rong Min, now a fellow archibuddy, pointed it out that i seemed like a loser, well, when i was mixing with people like weilong and kin ting and the rat tags(sec sch friends who are the ones always left out). I am not referring to you guys as really losers, what really determines a "winner" from a "loser". Its sad to know to had been tagged as one after not knowing it for like erm 4 years ? When i think of how my sec sch friends view me as such a person, i feel sad, not for myself, but for them. Haha, i seem to be like finding a backdoor out, but that's not the case here. Some people just did not have the opportunity to view others in a more matured and wider perspective.

Like how that militants kids were brought up with a biased opinion about the westerners, we were also kenna influenced by how we look and see things when we were young too. When i see my other sec friends in SP, i sometimes wonder how they think of me now. Is this good or bad ? Or is this just mere being self aware of oneself ? Yet, no matter how i talk to them, i hope their view of me had changed, like what Rong min said, that his view of me had changed drastically since 2 years back, and for this i thank you for helping me realise this fact.

I am not trying to be a goody 100 shoes. I wanna mix around with everyone. I want to be a nice person, helping people out that is within my abilities, and sometimes i expect people to help me back, but that cannot be the case all the time, i know that. Still, i wanna be part of something, like clique outings, class outings, family dinners, class reunion chalets and stuff. Its hurting sometimes to realise 1-2 years down the road, one had been ostracized and left out.

I try my best to bring people who are "out of the group" back to the main people, even if it means ruining my reputation and not hanging out with the "cool" people. Sorry guys, but that's just me. I feel that its my duty to help these people, as i can't stand the sight of people being treated this way.

Another reason i should point out that why i am in a relationship is because i want to feel warmth and being needed. Do you guys know what i mean ? Its about having someone to be there for you in the really bad times, and solving each other's shit. Sure some parts are hard to tackle, but it does not hurt to do your best right ? Love is damn chim, i agree that i do not know it yet but it does not hurt to try. Once you fall, climb back up again, someone would be there to help you out. Good guys and girls are always around.

Like what Jess had said, its easy making hi-bye friends, but its f-ing difficult to find that bosom friend. 3 years after you met, you forget each other. My friends reading this, would you forget me then ? Its okay really, because each and everyone would have their other rings of friends, minding their own shit and basically hecking their past. Its good in a sense, but wouldn't it better if friends are able to catch up ? After i graduate, if i can really meet my poly friends again, i think that would be a wonderful experience then. Haha, i hate myself, bloody perfectionist.

That's one of my goals within these few years. And hopefully i can achieve it.

And to Nancy if you happen to read this anytime in the future, i do not mean to call you a man, just a bad habit of mine to insult people and being highly critical with words. Sorry. I will go down to JJC and apologise to you personally if i have the chance.

And to Jess if you are slacking off again reading this, please manage your time well, cos i think you need some time management. Dun worry cos u got me and marj to help! And erm, thanks for the discussion we had that day. It was insightful.

And to the rest reading this crap, you might think that i am acting matured and crap, but that's just how i view stuff and wish to vent off in anyway possible using little violence and as civilised as possible. You have every right to rebut my views, or totally ignore them. Just my many cents saved out over the years.

Didnt have time to check my grammer, this is quite a long post and erm, thanks for reading....

024 : Let the gaming days begin!

Lets review the night hike i had with the scouts.

Total no. of scouts and ventures participating : 52
Total no. of leaders attending : 17
Total no. of red scarf kids treading through forest and urban singapore : 62
Total no. of active leaders actually doing something : 15
Total no. of stressed up leaders : 1(me)

well, its tought bringing along such a huge amount of kids and young adults out on a challenging night hike. especially if you only have 2 rovers who went for the recce and when the leaders expect the rovers to "fully take charge". a toughie really.

i need to brief everyone about the hike and stuff. here's where my public speaking skills chip in, which is not exactly very good. well, at least i got my message across, i think.

there were not much f ups by me at least, most parts of the hike was successful, except for some hiccups at the end of the hike when the scouts start to pitch up their tents. that was quickly solved my me of course =) i shall not go into details.

hike and passing on ceremony ends around 9 plus. met up with jess then for kbox.

ok, you must think i am crazy, well sometimes, i think so too, so its perfectly normal right ? at least i am self concious of what i am doing. didnt sing very well in kbox, well, mainly due to fatigue of the night's hike and all the talking to the scouts. guess i am just trying to push my limits i think. anyway, the whole day of fun, with constant drugging of my favourite coffee and high quality time spent with my significant other.

28 hrs straight no sleep, sure was fun man.

for now, its just play play play WoW or some other stuff. this week, i shall address some admin stuff for sch work and my outside commitments. maybe i should spend less time typing this crap and helping others like her with school work even though i am a total idiot to JC shit. oh well, just an eager young man try to "do his best" in life. forgive him.


If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.
If you work on your plan, your plan will work.

Work hard everyone!!!!

023 : Lookee me how cute

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haha, can you find me ?

022 : Recce for scouts hike

So what do you do after you finish your main project ? So play video games at home, so go out with their friend to orchard for shopping and spend some of their ka-ching.

For me, its planning out and doing a recce for my griffin scout's hike next week on the 17th of February. Its going to be an overnight hike with about 50 participants.

Here are some photos:

Over here we see queensway shopping centre our starting point. From left to right: myself, nicholas, wilson and jian hau. Nick is my fellow rover/ex-venture/scout. wilson and jian hau is our "boss" and respected leader.









This is on the railway near the AIA building. Me and nick very shuai right ?











This is the tunnel crossin below AYE, infested with mosquitos and all sorts of evil stuff you could ever imagine. Ok, its not that bad, just very small and wet.













After walking some more distance, we reached telok blangah hill for a great view of the sea and the central area. We are roughly around 12 storeys high. This photo shows most of my leaders with the addition of pei loon(with cap) and lawrence(sun zhong shan outift)









Recce ended at labrador park and went home after a warm and tasty lunch at harbour front food court. The real hike will be next week. Can't wait to see the faces of my juniors when they do go down through the drain in the middle of the night haha!

021 : Fun!

Its 1 hour to submission.

And its to my deepest and darkest joy that i am alive and kicking, blogging and enjoying a nice warm mug of milo in the breezy morning wind.

Oh, and i slept.

Haha! Evil Reign!

020 : Final Project update!

Ok, back to work... zzzz

019 : Cool commercial

Hey this advertisement is really great. Watch!




I think its very clever, the guy in the car was like wtf.

Back to work!